Monday, February 2, 2009
ready for a funeral
There is immense pressure to change everything about myself and my life currently right now. Get out of this house, maybe out of the town.. And to get out of debt and find a job.
But all I can think about are kitchens. And bookcases. I just have a huge need for bookcases and even more clutter. I could just let things engulf me and hide under them forever.
Winter makes the worst of us sometimes. We have to dig deep to find the part of oneself that can remain motivated.
These songs are not of positivity. I haven't cracked into that piece of myself. I'm working toward it. Instead, this is a stuck in maple syrup on repeat backwards drowning in it. DOS computer games. Sigh.
Dirty Projectors - Finches' Song at Oceanic Parking Lot
Kid Cudi - They Prayer (featuring Band of Horses' 'Funeral')